My Motherhood...

Before I had children, I was sure of what kind of mother I would be.

Now that I have children, my views have changed, and it takes constant effort to try to be the kind of mother that I want to be. More often than not, I don't know what I'm doing.
I just try to stay pointed in the right direction. Loving my children unconditionally is easy.

It's natural. Making sure that they always know that,takes work.

The first time I got to look into their little faces is something indescribable.
This is the moment I became a mom. My life is constantly filled with joy and fear.

I am constantly afraid of...

What if they get hurt?

are they happy, sad?

What if I mess it all up?

Am I feeding them right?

Am I teaching them enough?

Do they know how much I love them?

I love the little moments with them. I love looking at their little faces and absorbing every detail. They grow too fast and I don't want to miss a moment.

Some days I can't wait for them to fall asleep, but usually I miss them once they do. I am so blessed to have my babies.....

I love this quote from Marjorie Hinckley:

"I don't want to drive up to the pearly gates in a shiny sports car, wearing beautifully, tailored clothes, my hair expertly coiffed, and with long, perfectly manicured fingernails.

I want to drive up in a station wagon that has mud on the wheels from taking kids to scout camp.

I want to be there with a smudge of peanut butter on my shirt from making sandwiches for a sick neighbors children.

I want to be there with a little dirt under my fingernails from helping to weed someone's garden.

I want to be there with children's sticky kisses on my cheeks and the tears of a friend on my shoulder.

I want the Lord to know I was really here and that I really lived."

— Marjorie Pay Hinckley