MOMMY THOUGHTS....

Before I was a Mom - I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body. I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important and happy. I had never known the warmth, The joy, The love, The heartache, The wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much before I was a Mom. Before I was a Mom I never learned the words to a lullaby. I never thought about immunizations.Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on, Pooped on, Drooled on, Chewed on, Peed on and I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts. I slept all night. I never looked into teary eyes and cried. I never got gloriously happy over a simple little grin. I never sat up for hours watching a baby sleep. I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop the hurt. I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.I never knew that I could love someone so much. I never knew I would love being a Mom.

I love you my son so much, no words or expressions can describe the love I have for you. All my life I have emagined you and how you would look and be as a baby. Never in a million years would I have thought you were gonna be this perfect and beautiful. You truley are the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and every second is a blessing. Christien mommy loves you so much and will love you and guide you through this big world and be your best friend always. Always and forever you will truely be my soul and everything that is good in me. I will walk to the ends of the earth for you and push thru when the path looks so dark. Mommy loves you and will protect you from everything that is evil and guide you to happiness. I love you my son forever and always. Love mommy.